My life is atm a organised chaos.
Think I’m finding my way back with baby steppes. Slowly working towards the goal of a happier life for me and my son.
Seeing a zillion ppl that want to “Help”, if I wanted there help I would ask for it. It feels like they are just there to try and push me down again… But I put on that smile they want and I do what they expect from me and hope it will soon be over so I can start to live MY life without there “help” or presence.
The autumn is here with it’s bright colours, lovely as they are I fear the winter and the darkness it brings closing in a bit to fast… I hope I manage to get my self in some shape before it’s here. With non to give love to and get hugs from, in the dark and the cold, I need to be stronger.
Why on Earth is it so hard to find someone to love?! Is it me or my ghosts in the closet that is making this so hard…
Need someone to warm up my behind when winter arrives *lol* some of you know how Cold it gets.. it’s not good. Maybe just get another cat?
Other news that are not this gibberish above are that my move to a own place here in
My wallet is crying since I seem to find stuffz for it Everywhere haha ^.^ but It’s important for me that our new home will be nice and cozy.
Yesterday me and Tim went to Kista and the Indiska store, fixed curtains for the kitchen \o/.
Now we have every important thing except a sofa =)
Going to lay down in my bed now and read a book, with the autumn my passion for reading has kicked in again and I find my self reading my mothers books one after one… I miss my books, soon soon soooooooon I can lay my hands on them again, and you will all se less of me =P
*huggles my friends close and enjoy your body heat* <3
